loupmorque | Fortress of Meropide

Honey, please. We have so much wood. I don't think I've even got halfway through the Lumber Cube yet.

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I mean, glad you practised on regular trees first at least. Those peaches are... temperamental unless you know exactly how experimenting with them is going to work.

[ He KNOWS, he's a living example of that. ]

I guess at least if you're starting with seeds again he can get good practise in to figure out how much power he needs to use to grow them from seeds. By the time he hits the peach ones he should be pretty confident in it.

Well we'll just have to add them to the pile. I can't revive the trees, and we can't set them on fire in the fortress- so something has to be done with the wood.

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Mm, we're being careful and thorough, truly. An peach seeds are being kept safe until we're sure they can be grown without causing an incident.

This was just a mishap, it's to be expected to happen. The biggest headache from this is finding a replacement fruit supply until the orchard grows back.

Edited 2025-02-13 20:14 (UTC)

Alright, alright. I'll think of SOMETHING to do with them.

[ Maybe he can put together an assault course or something. For the people who would use it. Not him.]

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I know you are, I trust you. Even if I get worried about the whole thing, I still trust you that you can handle it.

Of course. No experiment works perfect first try. You learn from it, adjust and try again. I think the right call is Kni's fruit stand. I haven't been there myself [for FUCKING REASONS ] but I hear it's always really good stuff there. I don't think they've got a sniff on your orchard, but it works as a second-best for now.

[Does he know Kni's produce is grown by a dryad AND a goddess? Yes. Does that change his opinion his boyfriend is better at growing tasty fruit? Absolutely fuckin' not. He's allowed to big up his partner's botany skills here and he will. ]

Awwww, love really has blinded you.

It's okay, it doesn't bother me that my produce isn't as good as what comes from Persephone's cottage. The bigger benefit to my garden is that we don't have to pay for it or transport it all the way across town.

Edited 2025-02-13 21:29 (UTC)

Noooooo c'mon.

Let me compliment your botany skills. I wanna. Besides, I STILL think they're better and I'll stand by that. The benefits are just added bonuses.

Compliment my skills without insisting I should be the best, Var. It makes me uncomfortable when you do that.

[Varian is a stubborn little fuck who likes to stick to his guns come hell or high water. He also has a habit of trying to make the people who matter most to him feel... important. Better. Because it took him a long time before anyone ever told him that he was enough, and it's still a fact he's trying to get his head around.

But Jun has said it's making him uncomfortable and that's enough to pull him up short. Guilt blooms in his chest because that's the last thing he wanted. ]

I'm sorry, I didn't meant to make you uncomfortable.

[ There's a temptation to let the guilt sit there, to let it eat at him. But he knows he's told Jun he's trying to be better about forgiving himself. Jun made a step to communicate better here, and he should make his own steps here, too.]

Thank you for telling me. I'll remember and try to do better with that. I just wanted you to know how highly I think about you. But I see where I... missteped on that one.

[Don't worry, Jun's going to let guilt eat at him enough for the both of them. He's not all that used to setting boundaries, even if he's heard many times from his therapist and his loved ones that he should do that. Still... it's not a great feeling]

It's alright, I know you didn't.

[Nngh, he should probably explain]

It's not that I don't think I'm good, I know I'm good at what I do. And I know you think highly of me, I don't question how much you love me.

But Seal Knights aren't meant to get egos about themselves, it'd be dangerous. And being perceived as the "best" has brought me no shortage of trouble, as you know.

[ Varian certainly would rather he didn't feel that, but that's something he does know they both need to work on. He reads Jun's explanation, and with it comes understanding. ]

I can see where it would, yeah. I think you deserve the world and I think that sometimes... trips me up a little there. I understand why you can't indulge in it. Why you have to keep some distance from it. I'll try to be a little more careful in the future with that.

[And because he can guess Jun's not comfortable about this and does want him to know it's okay to do this. More than okay, really, and he feels some reassurance might be needed here. ]

Seriously, thanks for talking to me about it. I know it's... not easy for you to lay down boundaries, but I'm glad you did and I'm so proud of you for doing it. I'm okay. I love you.

See, that's the thing. Even if you're right and I do deserve it, I don't even want the world. I just want you. [He felt that was important to make clear.] But thank you, Var.

[He trusts Varian to sincerely try, now that he's made his side clear. But he's not wrong that it was uncomfortable to do. Just seeing Varian reassure him makes him breath out a little in relief. ]

Haha, well you have been a big proponent of talking things out recently. So I felt I owed you and our relationship that much.

[He really did want things to work and last between them. Which... even he recognizes sometimes requires conversations like this. Better to get it out now than let it stew and build into something worse, right?]

Oh. Well, that one's easy. You've got me. You've always got me.

[Varian smiles a little, feeling the tension ease out of his shoulders, that knot of guilt lessen.]

Well, I'm afraid you're the only one for me, you've got me by my whole heart and soul, so there's no getting rid of me. I... think it's important that we can talk to each other about stuff that bothers us and figure out how to help make each other's lives better. If that means adjusting how I act a little so I'm not hurting you? Then it's well worth the conversation.

So thank you, I appreciate it and YOU for talking to me.

[Varian is in here for the longest of long hauls, he'd really like them to be on solid, even ground, and that means communication! Which is far, far better than letting things stew. That one never works well for him. ]

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